Secrets and Lies

Secrets and lies
Dear sweet secrets.
We all have them.
We all live by them.
We all live with them.

It doesn't matter how big,
Or how small they are.
They will always be there.
Creeping up out of nowhere.
Making themselves known.

It's the lies that seem to...
Find their ways into the smallest hole...
Making themselves bigger than before...
Eating away at anything and everything...
Till there's nothing but misery left.

Allowing the secrets to take fold
Mixing and turning every little lie
Waiting for the perfect moment
To destroy everything...
Leaving everything and nothing

In a still balance
Where it all freezes
In one single place
Leaving only one thing left.

Why Do I Do This To Myself?

Why do I do this to myself?
This taunting of the heart?
Looking back...Thinking back...
On what used to be so important...
Who was so important then...

What is it I wonder, 
That really keeps me still.
Frozen in a moment that 
Once was, and will never be.

So how bout this time I get real
And figure out that what once was
Is nothing but a memory in the past
That now should be forgotten with...
Just about everything else that went
Oh-So-Very Wrong in my life.

I guess it's the feeling I still hold on to..
The one where you feel like someone
Actually cares about you...when
Someone gives you that attention
And desire that you've never bothered to
Feel.

Whatever the true meaning of that is.
I wont ever admit to it. However...
It's the curiosity that gets me...
And brings me to that moment..

That moment of first love.
That moment of first real 
           Heartbreak.

Let's Just Get Over It Already!!!!!

Something To Think About.

     It's amazing how time goes by and you think you know someone better than you know yourself. Then everything changes. They change. You change. You wonder what happened between you and that person you used to know so very well.Somewhere down the line you became distant. Somewhere down the line you stopped talking with each other.
     We meet so many people in our lives, some we say we'll be best friends forever. Yet forever doesn't last. Friendship doesn't last. Friends fight, argue, and disagree with each other. Kinda like family. The only difference is family lasts longer and has been there for you longer. However, in some cases, friends are one's only family. Like with foster children. Some of them have no idea who their family is.
     The point is. Throughout your life, every one you know will change. It's up to them on if they change for the better or worse. Just like it's up to you. You can go about your life thinking you'll never mount to anything, in yet you can be so much more than what you think. You can be so scared to be yourself thinking no one will like you for you, yet you'll never know unless you give it a try.
     Life is about finding yourself. Discovering who you are and what you want to do with yourself and how you plan on getting there. People will shoot you down. People will judge you no matter what. Be true to yourself and don't let all the bull shit drama get to you. You are who you are. With a POSITIVE mind, you can accomplish POSITIVE things. With a NEGATIVE mind, you'll accomplish nothing.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU MAKE OF YOURSELF.

NOTHING LESS, NOTHING MORE.

Let's Twist Words and
Let's Rhyme Songs.

We Haven't All Day,
We Haven't All Night.
Just This Moment Till
Morning Light.

Hold Me Tight
Don't Ever Let Go

Cause Once I'm Gone
I'm Gone And Am Not
Ever Coming Back

When It Comes To Me.

When It Comes To Me,
Take A Risk.
Take A Chance.
Most Of All:
BE PATIENT.

I Need The Type Of Guy,
Who Isn't Afraid To Be In A Big Crowd
And Would Scoop Me up No Matter
How Hard I Fought To Stay Down.

I Need Someone Who's Willing To Do
Something Crazy With Me,
Even Just For The Hell Of It.

Go On That Skating Rink And Fall All
Over The Place With Me.
Laugh It Off Every Time We Hit The Ground.

Don't Be Afraid To Because You Don't Know How.
What's The Worst That Could Happen?

Take That Chance In Being My Friend First.
Don't Move In On Me Too Quickly,
Take Everything Nice And Slow.

But Most Of All,
Be Patient With Me.
I Like To Take My Time
With People And Try To Get
To Know Then First.

When You Start Out As A Friend,
You Never Know Where Things May Lead.

Be Crazy, The Fun Crazy.
Take The Chance On Making Me
Try Something New,
Even If I Say I'm Scared.
Even If I Refuse To Go On That Adventure.

The Type Of Guy That Would Truly Understand Me,
Is The Type That's Willing To Take The Time To Be A Friend
And Get Me To Try Fun New Crazy Things, Like Ice Skating.
Someone Who Knows How To Have Fun And Has A Lot Of
Patients, Because I'm The Type Of Girl Who Takes My Time
To Make Sure Everything Can Be Exactly The Way It Should:
Fun & Exciting.

Let's Get Real

Let's Get Real.
Shall We?
I Mean, How Many Times
Dow We Go Through Life
Losing A Friend Over
A Boyfriend Or Girlfriend?

Or From The Realization That People
CHANGE.
It Can Be In A Good Way Or A Bad Way
Either Way, We All Change
Even If We Don't Realize Or See It.

So Let's Get Real And Stop The Childish
Stuff. Talk Like Grown Civilized People.
Look Deep Inside And Think For A Bit.

Now Listen.
I Didn't Lie.
I Didn't Want To Piss You Off.
I Didn't Intend On Hurting You.
I Didn't Intend On Betraying You Either.

I Believe That Maybe He Isn't The Way
He Used To Be. But It Doesn't Change
What He Used To Say.

So Let's Get Real.
Let's Grow Up.
Let's Set Aside
This Pointless Fight.

You Can Hate Me
And Be Done With Me
All You Want.
Hell You Can Even Think Ill Of Me.

I Only Wish For The Best For You (not him)
I Hope You Live A Happy Fulfilling Life
And Accomplish All You Ever Dreamed Of.

And That Someday You'll Think Of Me,
And Realize, That Even Though It May Not
Have Ever Seemed Like It, I Have And Always
Will Be There For You, If Not In Person,
Than By Heart.